I really don’t know if this week and a half are gonna be enough time off to reclaim my sanity. It’s been a rough few, honestly. I’m not wildly excited about whatever the hell the future holds, and everything I’m doing right now is boring and feels like an immense burden. I haven’t touched my 3D printer at all, I don’t play any videogames anymore, and I really haven’t done shit with my computer. I’ve basically just watched TV. That’s it. That’s what I’m doing with my life now. I’m watching TV. Saying that’s depressing is missing the soul-sucking conditions that pull a person into such a miserable vacuum. The very first requirement is that you need a job to demoralize and demean. That’s pretty much every job in this economic climate. The second requirement is that your means of income has to be close enough to your hobbies that it gives you a sincere distaste for them.

The holidays are drawing nigh. You’d think that massive loads of time off would be the most joyous event in my life, at least if you knew me. But it’s a dual-edge sword. Yes, the time off is fantastic. No, what we’re expected to do with that time off is absolutely infinitely less than fantastic. It’s actually bullshit when you think critically about it. Yet if that expectation didn’t exist we wouldn’t get that time off. They’re inextricably linked and also polar opposites. I dunno. It’s all kinda just bullshit to me.

In case you missed the title of this post; I’m intending to eviscerate the Christian Zionist movement and lay bare what it really is. Of course, I don’t have a lot of work to do with this post, as honestly Christian Zionists are a very lonely handful of people. The reasons for this are bountiful.

First and foremost, Christian Zionism is one of those “Pia Fraus” situations. If you aren’t aware of what “Pious Fraud” means, it’s an ancient catholic doctrine that gave the church infinite leeway in doing inhumane and terrible things to whomever opposes the church. The tenet itself is simple: “Nothing that results in furtherance of church expansion or ideals could possibly be evil”. I mean, call me a sucker, but whenever a leader asks for infinite forgiveness the result is probably something uncharacteristically evil.

In case you’re ever screwed because you lost the hunk of aluminum they ship along with their units, you can easily either use this file to control your Freya with a flipper or use a flipper to program a replacement remote by “teaching” the new one with your flipper and this file.

Filetype: IR signals file
Version: 1
# 
name: VolUp
type: parsed
protocol: NECext
address: F1 1B 00 00
command: F2 0D 00 00
# 
name: VolDn
type: parsed
protocol: NECext
address: F1 1B 00 00
command: F3 0C 00 00
# 
name: Mute
type: parsed
protocol: NECext
address: F1 1B 00 00
command: F5 0A 00 00
# 
name: Input
type: parsed
protocol: NECext
address: F1 1B 00 00
command: F1 0E 00 00
# 
name: Gain
type: parsed
protocol: NECext
address: F1 1B 00 00
command: F4 0B 00 00

The holidays are horrible. They’re not necessarily inherently horrible, they’re fine. They’re whatever. It’s not my cup of tea, and the holidays themselves have no real meaning to me. They used to be about spending time with family and catching up. That did have meaning to me. I don’t get that anymore, though. My mom gatekeeps my family from me. She doesn’t want me around, and so I am not around. But I have nowhere to go for the holidays, I have nothing to do but contemplate what life would be like to have a real mother, and not whatever the hell I was saddled with.

Was staring at this damn thing recently and realized that I need yet another “proof of life” post, because why not? I have the space, I might as well use the space. So here’s my latest “proof of life” rant.

And rant is exactly what I mean. I don’t really have a point with this post outside of letting people know I still exist. I guess I could fabricate a point.

Unless you’ve been living under a rock for a minute, you’ve probably seen examples of the Russian government actively oppressing companies they don’t like. Such as this. What a fucking joke. Fuck your propaganda, fuck your need to control a narrative, and fuck you in general. I hope someone shoots Putin in his fucking useless head. Someone really should, honestly. What a fascist piece of shit.

Can we arrange that, please? Honestly. Putin just needs to be assassinated. Useless fucking twat.

When I was a kid, I had a pair of those really awesome planar magnetic speakers from “Monsoon”. Surprisingly, I managed to hold onto those things and they’re currently connected to my mac mini. I need to get a DAC and preamp to really drive them appropriately, but they’re sorta rigged into the system currently regardless and honestly even with my patchwork bullshit setup they still sound very respectable. I do plan on getting a Schiit DAC and maybe one of those preamps they sell to drive them how they should be driven, but it’s not in the cards right this moment.