Is it easier for me to be dismissive if I never expected this to be my career? I honestly thought I’d be stuck in abject poverty. It started that way, anyways. I guess I should re-frame my question.

Many people, especially fairly neurotypical ones, make a plan for the future and make reasonable attempts at sticking with it. Some people go to law school, others become dental hygienists, and a good number of people go into nursing. It seems like a lot of people know what they’ll be doing for the rest of their lives by their mid twenties. At least the high functioning ones, anyways. You’ll always have the dredges who put their car payment before their rent, but I’m not really talking about them. I’m specifically bringing up the people who have a plan. It seems like they have an idea in their head about how every day of their lives will look and they’re seemingly content to put in the time and effort to get themselves there.

Before you dig into this stupid rant, make sure you read this report. If you haven’t read it, you won’t understand what the fuck I’m talking about.

The latest slam page written by Hindenburg Research is about Jack Dorsey’s predatory credit and payment companies. It’s a well-written and concise report with testimony from former employees of Block. This report goes above and beyond statements of facts about why a company may go solvent. It actually points to strategic and valid reasons a company should go solvent based on the impact it has on society. Honestly, I see this is an entirely new field of short-selling and I find it fascinating.

I read the Hindenburg Research report on Block. A few of the mentioned points regarding Block are blatantly obvious to anyone that has used their services. They’re out to make a buck, and they’re not above doing really shady shit to get all the bucks. Is this unusual? Of course not, it’s standard business practice, and I think that’s really the angle Cathie Wood is coming from to defend Block. She’s a fucking moron and a scumbag. The shit she’s saying is beyond absurd.

It looks like there’s a weird job offer on the table. Not sure how to regard it, but I’ll certainly hear them out to see what compensation would look like. At this point I’ve only been here for seven years because I haven’t had any compelling competing offers thrown at me. I’m not the moron to say something like “I would never betray my employer”. That’s purely idiotic. I’m always open to better offers. Always. It just happens that I got quite a break. Now that it feels like my career has sort of stalled, I think it might be the opportunity I need to further my career in ways I hadn’t anticipated. But, we’ll see. I’m just as skeptical as I am optimistic, perhaps more so. I suppose I’ll meet with a higher up soon, but I’m also going to be direct and honest. We’ll see.

I’m pretty sure I’ve peaked. Everything I was going to accomplish in my life as far as technology and science, I’ve already achieved. When it comes to learning, programming, and electronics- It’s all downhill from here. That’s it, show’s over. I think a huge portion of the reason for this lies in my job. Every job I’ve had prior to this one has demanded nothing of me intellectually. In order to cope with a need for stimulation, I sat down and learned everything I could about computers, electronics, networking. Now that I get this “stimulation” elsewhere, in fact regularly it’s demanded of me, I find myself not seeking those endeavors anymore. I don’t tinker. I haven’t learned anything new or substantial in over a year. My desire for self improvement is all but gone. It’s a crisis of sorts, and I really don’t know where to go from here.

In a wild turn of events, assholes Jim Jordan, James Comer, and Bryan Steil, are now threatening to defund the Manhattan District Attorney over his handling of the Stormy Daniels bribery case. All because Trump banged Stormy Daniels, paid her to shut the hell up about it, got caught, and became president afterward.

How the fuck are Republicans a thing anymore? They have absolutely no credibility. Honestly, they have a negative credibility balance, it’s time to take out a credibility loan. Just who the fuck are these clowns? Are they fucking serious right now? Do they even care remotely that they look like mafia goons in doing this? That’s what they’ve been reduced to. Seriously. This is asinine.

It’s wild that we’re on the verge of nuclear war. I won’t claim that I care a ton. I suppose an all-out nuclear war would drastically alter (or end) my life, but until the flashes in the sky it’s just a “maybe” at best. We’ve been “on the verge” since laying waste to Hiroshima. As if that’s not stressful enough, you have a racist old man in Florida trying to split the country apart, and succeeding. Can I just say how sad that is, by the way? A fucking moat? To protect someone who throws cash at every threat? Fuck every single one of you awful shitty MAGA losers. You’re fucking morons. Seriously. You’re memes of memes.

I wish I had more capability to write anything outside of “stream of consciousness”. It’s an irritating limitation. I can’t do “deep dives” into anything, really. I can’t be bothered to focus my attention for longer than three minutes on any given subject or task. It’s incredibly deleterious to accomplishing anything, really. Attentiveness feels like torture to my attention-depleted brain. Well, I guess that’s all the time I have to dedicate to that subject. Upward and onward.